Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Stability Forth

Plagued by injuries, a treacherous work schedule, and other unpredictable ups and downs, this season off from racing has not always been easy for me to deal with.  I have thought to blog more, but haven't been able to work up the energy until now I suppose. This blog is for my riding and mindset toward racing. Since there hasn't been any of that, I just haven't felt it right to update it.

Anyway, I am foreseeing some stability in my life at least for the next year. Stability in this case will mean that I can look toward racing next year. I will be a Cat4 and I will be hungry. My planning and preparation will begin tonight as I construct my training program.

However, there are a few things I must remind myself and even those around me if I am to commit to this.

  1. I will believe in myself, and in all that I do - know that I am doing my personal best mentally and physically.
  2. This will not be easy; a commitment to suffering is key.
  3. Sacrifices will have to be made.
  4. I will become stronger in every way.
I get flashbacks of my first win at Bucknell with my IUP team and how I did it with the help and support of my eager, passionate friends there. I savored the pain, effort, power, and numb elation I felt after crossing that finish line first with my teammate celebrating next to me. I remember my second win at the Bud Harris Cycling Oval in Pittsburgh where I had my very first race two years before. I remember the commanding sprint I won after a friend gave me his all to put me in the right position through the final bend to latch a wheel and overtake with bike lengths to spare. These are two moments among many that I cannot forget and will not let be the only times I will have accomplished goals for my bike and myself.
Tonight, I will construct my training program to take me into next year and the races I hope to show well in. Pulling from the strengths I have developed, the weaknesses I will combat, and the challenges I still hope to face, this program and race schedule will prove to be a real test for me. There is no time to lose and I want this.

Yet I know that I cannot do this without the support of those around me. Though I will be putting myself through a lot to reach what I want, I cannot forget that my life affects others. I will seek a balance in my life on and off the bike with my friends and family, my work and studies, and of course, my beautiful, supportive girlfriend. She is telling me to not hold back and I couldn't agree more.

I am a person with focussed passions. No, I have not always known what I have wanted to be or do with my life, but right now I know that I want to race my bike. Next year will be an opportunity for me and I want to take it.

Thanks for reading.


  1. Just found your post through Ernest Gagnon's site. I'm in his boat, but without a bike or plan or motivation. Working on all of that. Just wanted to encourage you to work on, push ahead. As you say, you're focused. May God heal your neuritis and give you joy and health! John

    1. Thanks so much for the encouragement and taking the time to read and reply here. I'm sorry I didn't see this sooner. Good luck to you as well, and don't be afraid to fail as long as you know that picking yourself back up is what you must do. My neuritis has healed and though, admittedly, I have not been perfect with my plan, life goes on and I am doing my best and sacrificing where I must.

      The whole goal is to have fun with a bit of gritting the teeth though the suffering to make it all worth while!